Imagine how much strength is needed to pull yourself out of a mentally dark place. Living inside a loop of darkness was not that easy for an already divorced and non-working relationship woman.
Despite all the facts, I still wished to add charisma to my life. Then, I had the hope to bring a positive change into the darkness of my life. I wanted out of it.
When I first met my new life partner, I realised nothing strange on the path I was about to enter. Everything seemed to be soothing and romantic—I felt and had a wish, he was the right buddy for me. But before it all came to my awareness, it was too late. I already was so committed to his shades of grays. And, furthermore bound to blame myself for everything—as this is what the dude with a narcissistic personality would do. How could I shift that?
When I was at my lowest point in 2014, my inner spirit warned me that something was wrong. My joy disappeared of being in love with a gloomy psychopath. Therefore, I had to find hope to bring a positive change into the darkness of my life. Before I knew of it, I drowned myself in researching psychopathic and sociopathic behaviour. Quickly, I realized that the entire experience of living in a complex and miserable life was all evil actions. It resembled so well in my partner—the nice looking guy!
Regain Control Of A Troubled Life.
However, when I moved to England in 2016, I initially started writing. Mostly to self-contain myself and my thoughts and eventually to regain control of my troubled life. Was there any hope to bring a change into the darkness of my life? Nevertheless, the process forced me to shed light on mentally abuse. Then, I wanted to raise awareness of the blindness in adoration for fake love scammers.
As a result, I released Part 1 of my book Burning Desire trilogy: The Psychopath and the Girl in Black Prada Shoes in February 2020. Thereafter followed by Part 2 Burning Desire Fades: The Psychopath And The Girl In Black Prada Shoes in autumn 2020. Both the books in the series highlight a relative story about a girl living in a toxic relationship. The literature covers every aspect and reality of my complicated-loving life and spiritual trauma. Although, despite being fiction, the reader can eventually enlighten themselves on many secret. Including unhidden aspects to discover and finally deal with a psycho personality.
I wrote the books to guide and enlighten others to not fall into the dark web of suffering. Just as I did! Moreover, to help and assist other women and men in handling a psychopath. Mostly for the reader to realising every aspect before it is too late. You can even check these reviews from Amazon to make yourself aware of my story and the series:
“This book has sparked more re-evaluation by me than any other book I’ve read for quite some time. Since starting to read the book, I’ve been looking at all of my friends and family (and myself) as if with new eyes.
That some people who I know are sociopaths would go a long way to explain some of the behavior I’d otherwise be at a loss to explain. I might have considered the possibility sooner had I known that sociopathy occurs so frequently. Amazing read!” —Erin
“A very interesting page-turner which reminds me of my own attempts to warn friends of harmful significant others.” —AlexS
“This book is important not only for survivors of this type of abuse but for people in general to be equipped with the skills to help people through the agony. I feel like I’m now more capable of helping a survivor, even if that just means giving space and time to work through the ridiculous reality they’ve suffered.
I highly recommend this book to survivors, their loved ones, and therapists who are working with abuse survivors. It is not only targeted at those who escaped abusive relationships, it can also function as a guide to spot warning signs in new relationships.
A must read for anyone living with/attached to/or recovering from a psychopath’s path of destruction. After you read this book you will let go of your, “what ifs” and your, “If I’d onlys.” Worth reading!”
“The story has been so emotionally and effectively penned down, you will feel pity for Mary. I really felt very connected to her, I was feeling her pain. The story depicts how a single decision can have leave such an impact in one’s life. This was an eye-opening, inspiring read.”
“I didn’t expect for the theme of this book to hit home as it did. I had a marriage that reminded me of what I experienced as I read. Fortunately, I was able to survive and move on. Burning Desire Fades: The Psychopath and the Girl in Black Prada Shoes is well-written and has credible characters and situations.”
—Neil Perry Gordon
Accomplished The Impossible
I hope and keep trying hard to make others aware of “how I felt being a part of an abusive relationship.” And how this negative, dark, or unfortunate event of the past shaped me as a stronger and more concerned person. Here and now, I discovered how I accomplished the impossible: writing books about being a victim. Foremost, surviving the cruelty and abuse of a disgraceful man who had no love and compassion for me or others.
I feel blessed and victorious to be able to leave out the past and the nightmare. And, I know everyone can; you just need to believe in yourself and try!
The biggest coward is a man who awakens a woman’s love without the intention of loving her.-Bob Marley