It is my ambition to say in ten sentences what others say in a whole book.

Friedrich Nietzsche

The lizard in the desert

Will you believe it? There he is! The lizard is watching me unscrupulous and resting in the sand while the sun is gloving on him.  

It is more than difficult to get this all down on paper because I want it to be authentic. I wish to rationally sense life as Mary experienced it with her ‘lounge room lizard’. I have changed all the names of the characters, the establishments, and the places. The story is fictional, but it contains ideas based on actual events.

How to tell it in ten sentences?

That is one of my problems! It can’t be told in a few words. Sorry, friends! However, ten sentences might be easy to read. So, let’s jump to it.

Thank you for the push Sir Richard Branson. It gave me a new beginning.

So I did it!

Precisely what Sir Richard Branson once wrote. In my new process of life, I can add one more quote by the same man.

A hot August summer

Living near the beach is my dream, and then walking it day and night. The most liberating thing is falling asleep with the windows open, then tucking myself under the duvet and listening to the sound of the waves crashing on the beach. Laying there I’m letting the moonlight shine through the open door and from my bed, I’m then watching the stars in the clear night sky. 

My decision to finish the story of Burning Desire began when I moved into my new apartment in the first row of homes, facing the magical sea. It provides a stunning view from the balcony and is barely fifty meters from the Bournemouth sea and the golden sand.

The first night is peaceful and I wake up to a hot August summer morning on the south coast of the United Kingdom. The sun is shining through my window as it awakens me at ten o’clock in the morning.

I’m still resting in my silky white sheets, warmly tucked around my naked body, and stretching my limbs like a lazy cat. I have no desire to get up. After rubbing my eyes, I sit on my bed to let the blood flow through all my veins, and I look around in the room in confusion. Oh… my… goodness! Boxes in every corner.

The balcony door is open, and a nice fresh sea breeze sneaks into the room. The sound of the crashing waves reaches my inner ear with a pleasing calmness, and I think, Why not? Leave the boxes and begin writing a new book or finish the other ones I’m working on.

I know my life is rather unreal.

I was heartbroken for a long time, so I’ve not had the time or psyche to finish the books. Being loved one day and completely upset the next turned my life upside down. The man I love often tells me, 

  • ‘Trust me. I love only you. We are meant to be’ 
  • ‘We will be together for the rest of our lives’.

The many red flags!

I am devastated! Thinks are not as he promised. It’s all a lie! The many red flags slipped past my attention about him being a dangerous person. It’s difficult to imagine and understand life without him, because he is the best thing that I believe has happened to me. Too late, I figured out the meaning of the phrase ‘lounge room lizard’. I believed him and trusted him with my life, and that’s the biggest mistake I ever made.

I allowed myself to reveal something gruesome. The same thing he did to me also happened to the other woman I know about.

The medieval, ordinary man

Why is it so important to use the expression ‘lounge room lizard’? This is usually a reference to lounge musicians, most often in a negative sense. 

This person has the character of a medieval, ordinary man, who looks charmingly good. The person resembles a dehydrated, oppressed lizard and they often get romantically involved with a wealthy woman. They typically show up as a well-dressed man and frequents surroundings where the rich and famous gather. This is the type of man who will seduce a wealthy woman with his flattery and deceptive charm.

Oh, gully gosh! Will you believe it? The dude has so much charisma and is extremely convincing while he pretends to be a first-class trustworthy and charming person. I have met none person so full of good ideas as he is. It’s amazing how the fella can captivate people in front of an assembly. This chap is enchanting with his skills and high energy, so you can only fall in love with him.

  • Trust me, baby!

Those were the main words during our time together.

A great deal of speculation

Later, various problems arose, with his many cunning plans. His professional approach or his projects usually awakened a great deal of speculation, but often, it was too late to see through his disguise. Unfortunately, I did all my research too late, so it excruciatingly conned me, while loving him blindly. 

The phrase ‘loungeroom lizard’ presumably relates to the cold and insinuating quality of the reptile. It has sharp claws like an eagle, which is unscrupulous when snatching his next victim. It’s usually a distressed woman, whom he wants to lure into marriage.

A Russian proverb says, 

‘Love is evil. You can fall in love with a goat.’ 

In other words, love is blind, and the pretty headless chick becomes blinded.

He chillingly torments her

Mary is such a sorrowful, pretty little doll. The man she meets eagerly tries at the early stage to seek some benefit from her, because he never married the previous one. The woman usually has valuable possessions and money that the lizard man can profit from, and the more naïve, unhappy, and helpless she is, the better for him.

It’s never his fault!

He strikes with his nasty sharp claws into her vulnerability and misuses her to the last drop, with no empathy or remorse. He chillingly torments her until she gets severely wounded, like a helpless animal lying in the gutter, abandoned and helpless in misery! This is the man she trusts! Why has he done so?

Later, she discovers the maliciously cunning narcissistic artist in him, an evil psychopath! A bloodsucking leech who sucked the last blood out of others throughout his entire life. His complete lack of self-discipline and respect for obligations, rules, and social norms are immense, and his repeated speech patterns are full of lies. His mood swings are almost impossible to see through, and he has the flawless ability to bend the facts. It’s always someone else’s fault. That is his best play. No matter what, that’s how it’s done.

Author: M. L. Stark

My name is M. L. Stark, and I wrote the “Burning Desire - The Psychopath and the Girl in Black Prada Shoes” series based on experiences from my personal life. BURNING DESIRE, and BURNING DESIRE FADES knowing I’ve achieved the impossible; to write books about being a victim who survived the cruelty of abuse. Ending with one of Bob Marley’s quote: “The biggest coward is a man who awakens a woman’s love without the intention of loving her.” You can follow me on Facebook or Twitter.

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